Thursday, December 29, 2011

Christmas Happenings

via pinterest

I have never had a Christmas I enjoyed more. I also have never had more humble Christmas. Funny how that works. I really think I am getting to the age where I really just want to spend time with my family, less time with the presents and hype of Christmas. It was marvelous.

Christmas Highlights: 

-My Grampa and me having some quality time while he showed me via google maps where he grew up in Michigan and the childhood shananigans that came with it.

-Looking through my grandmas family history book with her. New years resolution to do more work.

-Playing with my cousins, and enjoying it..

-Spending time with my dad, him showing us pictures from Iraq, seeing movies together, spending Christmas eve with him.

-Long talks with my mom on the drive home. She is my therapist and the best listener.

-Visiting and bringing treat to the elderly in the retirement home on Christmas Eve. & we visited my elderly friend J. He is 91, and still quick as a whip, it had been too long.


This week I am semi ashamed to say that I cried. At least 3 times. It's funny though, all 3 times were not from a place of sadness, weren't out of fear or unknowing, they were from an overflowing amount of gratitude and  joy.

Specifically one night while getting into bed I reflected on the days events and was amazed at how much the lord's love has impacted my life, and how grateful I was to be in the place that I was able to handle the events of that day. 2 or 3 months or even weeks ago I would have laughed at the fact of those events happening. I am truly grateful that we are both better for it, and happy. It was not me, I am not that person who could have sat there and been truly happy for someone and not heartachy for myself, or so I thought. But it happily surprised me how easy it was to be happy for someone doing well. It reaffirmed to me that through the lord, I can be made bigger then who I am, that is honestly the only explanation of where I am now.

Blessed. I am blessed. Here's to pressing onward, and seeing what new adventures it leads me to. Hope everyone had a marvelous Christmas!

Now I'm off to a wedding reception. Congrats to my beautiful friends Amanda (please) & Alfie! Hopefully I can snap some pics to show off their amazing style here later.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

I feel slightly unpleasant.

I am starting to accept that some things in life just aren't meant to be.

All I know is I wish I had the master copy of my life plan so I didn't have to spend so much time planning and then have things not work out the way I was planning!

So folks, looks like Switzerland it is..
cue big heavy sigh..
Wow, how ungrateful does that sound...

tomorrow I'll make sure this is what is right, I'll keep you posted.

Whine whine whine boo hoo hoo. bahh jokes. It's fine, just a little bummed is all.

Bah. Trust Chelsea, trust.

fine fine, the bishop gets his way. But there is one thing I will not do, and that is date losers.
SORRY
I just wont do it and you can't make me
dangit!

hmph.

that's all. Now to go make gingerbread houses to get in the Christmas spirit.

Merry Christmas friendships!

Monday, December 19, 2011

My future is blowing up!

Deciding between two amazing opportunities is hard, especially when you give yourself two choices, and both of them are dreams come true.

I might have just done a terrible thing to my brain for the next month while deciding between them.

But I trust the Lord to tell me what's best for my life. Hopefully I'm strong enough to choose whichever answer he gives me.

But.. can I just say, I'm friggen stoked for what's next, either way this summer is going to rock my socks off!

Literally, I will have no socks on my feet after. 

The News: 

I'm officially accepted to study abroad in Switzerland this June! Never thought it would happen, but it is an amazing opportunity that I feel so grateful for!



 yikes! life, slow down so I can make the right choices. Thanks!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Mostly, I love time.

I have so much time I do not even know what to do with it, it is a beautiful thing! Today I got to wake up naturally and read my scripts without a time limit!!! It was incredibly wonderful! It reminded me of the summer when I had time to do this and loved every minute. That was one of my favorite things about having no school.

Welp it's back! Last night I got to catch up with my brothers who I NEVER SEE. You know the people you can completely be yourself around and you laugh the whole night? Yep that was last night, way overdue. The heaviness from everything and finals dissipated pretty much instantly so it was really nice. What am I gong to do with them next semester?

Today is dedicated to running errands that I normally never have time to do, so exciting! Is it bad that I actually am really excited? Christmas shopping is also making it's way into this day hopefully which makes me happy as well.

Peace and blessings I wish to you and yours this day.



If you are in need of :

1. cookies to get through finals
2. prayers to survive this week
3. or are done and want some snowy friendship time
let me know and i will try my best to comply.

Either way have an awesome christmasy snowy peaceful lovely week & remember

If you put your trust in the Lord, he will always come through for you. Come what may and love it.

Monday, December 12, 2011

hibernation

Note to self, don't blog when your tired slash stressed.

I am done with my semester! it was a little anti climatic actually, maybe cuz I'm so tired baha

I am a blessed girl. And now I can RELAX!

See you when I'm done hibernating the finals hangover off.

Good Luck all!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Shh.. Top Secret!!

I maybe just applied to study abroad this summer.. To go to the place that makes holey cheese.

But.. it is not for sure. There is another choice in the makings also but I must give it time to see how I feel about it.

Either way life is about to make a huge turn into greatness.

Wish me luck that I make the best choice.

Goo that sentence haunts me.

Life is so scary when it's in your hands.

 Ps. got asked out by another semi creepster today from my ward. These questions came to my head

How did you get my number? Ward Directory? Someone who is playing a not even funny practical joke? I will hunt them down.

Will Heavenly Father forgive me for telling a fib to spare some young man his money, time, and feelings? (if anyone asks I am currently seeing another man.. ahh I'm a terrible human liar she devil)

Also, put into place my newly abolished law of "give everyone at least one date." Just in the nick of time too!

Universe, I plead with thee what have I done to offend you and how can I ever make amends so you send me a normal,respectful, gentleman, tall dark and handsome,  man to date?

if anyone has any tips on how to attract regular nice men I think it would be beneficial to me and my future children.

That's all.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Today.


Today I finished reading this book. Cover to cover. BOM, D&C, Pearl of Great Price and all. Today I hit the Index page and felt an overwhelmed and surprised that I finally did it. Started in about April I think, but really got going in May.
Since this is my personal blog I will tell you that this is the first occurance of this happening in my life.

I might not be the bishop's daughter.
I might not be the relief society president.
I might not have served a mission when I was 21.
I might not be married at 18 right out of high school and be popping out children and doing crafts on pinterest. (but I do enjoy pinterest, let's be honest)
I might not be this or that stereotype that we are told is supposed to be a certain type of lds woman.

But I did finish it today. And I am a daughter of my heavenly father, who is imperfect, but demanding improvement of herself daily, hourly, and will NEVER GIVE UP. And to me I know that that is good enough for Him that sent me here.

This book gave me comfort when I was inconsolable.
It gave me peace at a time when nothing made sense.
It gave me a testimony of the love of my Father when I had no one else.
It gave me happiness when there was no further emotion that was from me.
It rescued me and gives me strength everyday to keep pushing forward.
I'm so grateful for this book, and even though I may seem a bit behind, I know for me it came at the best possible time in my life.
& I know without a doubt it can bring this kind of happiness to anyone who seeks it out to read it.

I'm excited for further study.
Here's to first nephi tomorrow.

And Preach My Gospel in between.
and The Miracle of Forgiveness.


Friday, December 2, 2011

Masako


This is the new love of our lives Masako. She is the softest kitten I have ever held. She also is evil most of the time and scratches and bites us and climbs up our legs. But  I have to remember she is a kitten and super playful.  Right now she is sitting on my back eating my hair as I type this. Yep. Her hobbies are attacking my hand whenever I am reading a book and turn the page, meowing at me 4 inches from my face at 7 am to be fed and played with and sitting on the back of the couch by our heads and attacking our faces at random times. She also likes to play this game called whenever I am running late to school, (which is everyday, let's be honest) she likes to hide under my bed and make me crawl all the way under to grab her out all the while biting my hand so I can close my door so she doesnt run rampant all day in it. The squirt bottle is her arch nemesis and my newly acquired most beloved household item. Today we took a nap together and she was really warm so it pretty much made up for any inconveniences she may have. She is my roommates kitten technically too so I really don't have to take any responsibility for it when I don't want to. Does that make me a terrible person? hmm.. I hope not.

Purrrrrfect! 


Ps. This is a scarf she likes to wear that our good friend Noelle knitted for her. Noelle is becoming one of my favorite humans and just got her mission call to the DR!! woop! Congrats girl!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

tips from last weekend.


Boys if you like a girl DO NOT do any of the below mentioned things on date 1 if you want her to stick around:

1. Do not ever, I repeat EVER get the door only once the whole night for her and then psych her out and walk through it first. THIS IS A DEAL BREAKER. You are selfish and inconsiderate and if you want to make a good impression on a first date this is the last thing to do.

2. Do NOT give her the option or suggest she drives once arriving to pick her up or anything of the sort. If you don't have heat in your car bring a friggen blanket. You're gross and it's only minute 7 of the date and you are acutely unattractive from the passenger seat.

3. Never under any circumstance take her to a restaurant and then when being seated decide it is too expensive and make her get up and leave to go to chili's. YOU ARE TACKY.

4. Whilst at Chili's DO NOT tell/suggest to her to get 1 of 6 choices of dinners just so you can get the 2 for 20 deal. Thanks for asking me on a date and deciding what I can and can't order, you're a gentlemen and a scholar.*

*I am as knowlegdable as the next college student as to how poor we all are. I am not suggesting you take me to hamiltons here. but being tacky and cheap as to tell me what to order is just bossy and gross. I'm not materialistic or shallow I just don't want to be made to feel like a burden on a date you asked me to go on. 


5. After dinner do not set a time limit for my digestion of dinner. Also you probably shouldnt get openly annoyed when I don't want to stand up and scream for 2 hours with you with a belly chuck full of chicken. & I quote
Him: "if you sit down it makes me look like a DBag, you should stand up."
Me: "I'm really sorry, I'm jsut really not feeling that well, just give me a couple minutes to digest.. if that is okay?"
Him: "Well, you've had like 15 minutes to digest already. You're making me look like you don't want to be here with me and I look like a tool."
Me: in my brain "Um..is this guy serisous? really? How about you take me home, would that be more appeasing to your ego? how much longer is a socially acceptable date length again?" check watch for the third time.

6. If you are 20 and a preemie and I am 22, I don't want to date you. No explanation necessary. It's just how it is. Sorry.

7. DO NOT explain on the first date how much you haven't dated recently and how you are so incredibly picky but for some reason I happened to catch your eye because you "like my style." Do you not realize my roommate told me you asked her on a date last month? I'm not flattered.
Note to self: 
stop doing everything I have been doing. starting now. done. 
8. Do not continue to text me after you have left a voicemail and I never returned your call. Get the hint, I'm not interested. It is as embarassing for me as it is for you, trust me.  


9. It is really evident to me that your goal in life is to be known as a legitimate hipster. Your slouchy beanie and deep v already give me this evidence. You do not have to ask me if I know this or that band every other sentence during our time together. Music is beautful to me and a great joy, but your music snobbery is a rather feeble attempt at your desperate plea for my respect and to prove your "legitness". On that note also, I'm an art major. The fact that you dabble with watercolor is not that impressive to me, sorry now I'm the one being a snob, but if you hadn't bragged about this fact at least 6 different times on the date it wouldn't even be an issue now would it?


even just for friendship: 
10. Never come to her house uninvited, eat her food, ask for favors, complain about your unrequited love, ask for rides to school, and then leave without so much as a thank you or what can I do for you. Using girls for their kind motherly love and service is disrespectful no matter how you sugar coat it. It's gross and unacceptable. 

11. You should give as much as you get and then some. This may seem archaic or old school but even just friends should treat you to the worth that you have. I'm not saying I need to be worshiped, treated like a dainty princess or that I'm fragile and need someone to take care of me, but we are all holy children of our heavenly father and should be treated as such. Not what can I get from someone but what can I give. Most guys don't get that and it is gross that amount they ask for from their "friends."

needless to say my "give everyone at least one date rule" is abolished. The happiness I felt when I finally made it home from this torturous night  made me realize some people just should be exempt from this rule. 

Crazy awesome dating experience I know.
 And my Bishop asks me why I'm not dating anyone. I want to blank stare him until he understands how pathetically unimpressed I am with the male gender these days. 

These passed couple weeks I learned a valuable lesson. Some people just don't belong in your life. They arent bad people but you don't have to keep them around especially when they are not uplifting.

 I never thought being so blunt would be a good thing, but when it's your only choice left there's no getting around it. It's just so foreign to me to.. have to stand up so hard for myself.  I've never really had to experience something like this but I'm grateful for the lord teaching me a valuable lesson on standards for myself and others if they want to have a place in my life.

Sometimes you have to be self reliant and do what is best for your progression and life, no matter who may not like it.

It's weird. well, here's to lessons learned and progression made. 




That's my rant. I'm done now.