Revelation Riding Home.

The sun was being merciful on me & my post sickly self today
cool wind caressing every hair on my bare arms & legs
 & blowing through my wake up, take out of a bun, bobby pin & go hair
No sunglasses necessary sky
as me & lykke li flew down old main hill, under the tunnel, and down the parkway towards the temple
looking down over the valley I sing along to one of my favorite songs that made this particular ride home the stuff that makes life memorable
I looked forward down the long green foilage lined path and bathed in the joy of the moment
As light sprinkles of rain kissed my face I let go and coasted with arms outstretched
It was then I realized
I am truly happy. Not for the moment, not for a time, but for everything.
I could not have a better house or better roommates. They are more than words, and it's only day 4.
I could not choose a better major and life path to be pursuing then the one thing I truly love and accept now. even if I have more years here because of it, I know this will be the best outcome for me and I will enjoy every minute of my that time and my life from hence forward.
I could not imagine myself any different than I am right now, in any other situation, in any other time because without a doubt I know I am in the exact spot in my life that is right for me right now.
I am thankful for everything that has brought me to this point with no end and no amount or number calculated could describe how happy I am to be exactly where the Lord has brought me to right at this exact point in my life.

I have a long ways to go before I am satisfied however, there is always something more to learn and develop and grow to be better from, but I know I am on the right path to that end.

It's amazing what happens when you submit to the lord to guide your life. He has greater things in store for you than you could ever imagine.


D&C 11:
 8 Verily, verily, I say unto you, even as you desire of me so it shall be done unto you; and, if you desire, you shall be the means of doing much good in this generation.

For the 12,333,543,232,343,545,454 time.

THANK YOU. 

  

sneakiness never was happiness.

SO, I think throwing out my secret be healthy vibes may have backfired.

I woke up today with a 99.5 fever (which most recent temp is 100.1), hurty all over body aches, and sickly weakness throughout every muscle. Then I cut myself shaving in the shower and realized my sore muscles from running the road to hana friday (I love technology) are more commonly known as shin splints.

 This is NOT the way I wanted to start out the first day of school.. TOMORROW.

I might have sent my health away with the secret good health vibes that I sneakily threw out.

So because of this sicness, in between getting a sweet blessing from my awesome neighbor friends, catching up with some old ones and lets be honest sleeping pretty much the whole last day of summer away, (barf) I realized that I need a new school bag & have been on the prowl! My amazing DI find turned out to not be so sturdy after one year of use..who would've thought..

Upon this search I discovered an online store which is pretty hip. 

Goes by the name of 

here are some treasures I would like to share with you that i discovered and adore.  Please enjoy.

So sick! but don't worry these are only 295$. nbd. I think I'll stick with Urban 10$ shades. 

I feel as though this would make a winter day pretty bearable. (54$)

love the green & only 161$!! Definitely more reasonable than the top ones. 

.... hmm maybe later. 

 love this for some reason. 

Anyways they have some really unique/crazy jewls as well, so if you like what you see check out more here.

As for tomorrow, hopefully I kick this fever and it's just a 24 hour thing so that I can begin to learn French at 730am tomorrow.
Your prayers are welcomed as are any baked "get well soon" goods. 
Just some ideas. 
But be cautious not to give away your health when you pray for someone else to get well, it happens.

The Ting Tings - Great DJ by carmenalvarezaparicio

Praying.. from a distance.

I know you don't need me & the last thing I want to do is be around you, 

trust me. 

But secretly I wish I could help or do something, I hate to think of you like this.  

Sometimes I wish I could drink polyjuice potion and bring you rice krispies and chicken noodle soup and make sure you're okay & well. 

This summer I have brought people cookies, letters, talks and served them for much much less. Ignoring the pull to help or do something after months of training is weird & unnatural! 

But, I know my place, and as much as I hate to stand by and watch, it is not for me to be there anymore, if needed or not.

I thought this was funny, and since I can't/wont send it to you & I know there is no way in heck you read this blog anymore, I am putting it on here to secretly send out happy vibes.

So.. I only pray & hope from a distance for a speedy recovery and trust others are doing all they can around you.

which, I know they are.  

So.. here's to being strangers..

& keeping it that way. 

Cheers.


...but secretly your healthy recovery is in my prayers, suck it!

Unpack Break.

Been packing & unpacking since before a time I can remember anymore and I need to take a break so... here I am! 

My new room is coming along nice with the art work I made and bought in New York if I do say so myself.. 

Moving was scary but I already like my new house so much.. Everything is beginning to feel right and I knew it would. Silly Chelsea.  

I'm excited for school to start and to be busy. Here's the updated line up: 

French Year I

Art History I

JCOM ..maybe..

3D Design

Photography I 

Scripture Study

Joseph Smith History & Martyrdom 

I would like one or two more classes, wait list numbers to go down down down. 

Is it bad that I fully intend on/desire being completely anti social?

yes please. 

Also this, I don't know if Ariella is going to church anymore since she went back to the DR. I asked the Lord for missionary opportunities & experiences and I've gotten them, and this one.. I'm glad I can relate.. but I wish I wouldn't have to feel the ache of loving someone and being so excited for them to come to the gospel & then for it to just fizzle out.. even though I know it happens a lot. It's almost heartbreaking, but I can only hope that when she is ready there will be something planted in her heart from the time she was here. 

TOnight's dinner - walmart warm french bread. I'm such a sucker for warm bread.

Anyways back to organizing. Also today I read D&C ch. 7, it was exquisite. Look it up for a good time. 

Hope all had a beautiful TR & a happy F. Commence last weekend of freedom. 

Where is home now?

Welcome to my new humble abode 

Living room 

kitch

living room (in love with this color)

Moving is bittersweet. 

I love my summer room/house. spiders and dead rat smell & all. If these walls could talk it they would tell you that I am leaving a different person then I came.

It's crazy, my new room felt so weird and foreign today as I piled in my stuff. It's super great, but I hate to leave my life here & garden too. My life is here!! I have made my room my home, my security, my peaceful nook to hide away in, do you ever feel like that? & now I'm leaving my home! eeeek

On this floor I began my scripture study habits

This carpet has been worn by my knees & tears while saying the most sincere prayers of my life

I cut through this green shady yard to bring my neighbors cookies when they got dear jane'd and developed a deep love for service

and pushed open the little gate to go to institute on tues/thurs mornings where I learned and heard all the things I needed to at the time

My garden in this backyard saved me from thinking way too much

The front stoop is where I listened to my grandma tell me stories of her grand parents and gain a love for genealogy 

This room is where me and my sister got to share again for the first time in like ten years and really talked like we used to 

This basement is where I had late night talks with my favorite roommates and gained a deep love for them

This kitchen is where me and Ariella talked about the gospel over McDonalds at midnight and she told me she wanted to get baptized

This driveway is where I always bottom out.. k I wont miss that, I hate those stupid pot holes

This street is the street I would drive, ride bikes, walk, to the temple every week from. 

My new house is closer, plus.

This is the giant tree in the backyard that bloomed little yummy smelling pretty white flowers that I would pick and put in the vase in the kitchen 

This is the house that became my sanctuary, and where I grew most in

I know I want to move on, but it's scary to have to start over with new (wonderful) girls in a new place, in a new ward, in a new environment.. I know I'm being silly, it's like 3 minutes away, I just have really grown to love my life here and the spirit that it has with it, but I know moving on is what is needed & deep down wanted. 

But half of me worries, what if I am moving into the wrong house?! In the wrong place at the wrong time and it wont be the same and I will hate it and most importantly it's not where I am supposed to be!?

What do you do when you don't know what the right place is for you? 

Welp, I've got no where else to go. 

So, hopefully the Lord has led me to the right house, in the right time and the right people to share it with. Wish me luck, tomorrow I'm a gonner! 

The Secret Life of Daydreams by leticiaK

Donezo.

Once upon a time I finished reading this book 3 days ago. 

The words in here lifted me above hopelessness

Guarded & guided me through depression

Filtered emotion from truth

Turned anger into charity 

Gave me understanding out of grief

Always, without fail said the right things when in need of advice

Gave me direction throughout incredibly difficult changes

Transformed bad habits into righteous actions 

Was my mother, father, best friend, and teacher 

Made my sadness dissipate until I forgot the originator

Made my life meaningful and whole at times of seemingly incomplete failure

 Brought me through pitch black darkness to an indescribable never ending light

Made me forget myself
Brought me a greater knowledge & closer to my best friend

Gave me the best light to directly follow

Gave me hope

Gave me love
Gave me.. a reason to keep pushing through

Gave me complete & udder peace 

in a time where these were the last things I should have been feeling. 

& the best part is
it does this for everyone
in their own individual way
in the best way for them
understanding you like no one else can and giving you exactly what you need to hear for every different situation in your life.
specifically testifying to everyone that there is always hope 
if they are open to reading it for real and letting it into your heart. 

So here's to D&C.

I'm already on chp 3. 

My soul feeds on these scriptures. 

Just one more of the 121,343,534 blessings I have gained. 

oh & ps. 

Thanks 
for the 200th time. 

I fought you the whole way, only to come out better than I could have ever imagined I could be. 

I'm glad someone who is all knowing is looking over my life. 

Happy Monday all.

TGIS

Some days I wish there were trains in Logan 

So I could hop them and never look back 

Everyday I go to battle

Today I feel as though I got ambushed in the night. 

Everyday is a battle, really I am getting so tired

tomorrow is a new day, and a whole new battle. 

TGIS (Thank Gosh It's Sunday)

Let's count our blessings and ask the heavens to open & teach us what we need to learn this day. 

That's all. Love to you.

& can I get an amen for making good tips tonight? yeah girl! 

Great Morning.

small sidenote - Taking my sweet time finishing Moroni. Chapter 7 is pure art. I'll keep you updated. 

Also, ran around central park today 5.08 kilometers as the machine said.. (Yes I am an American so I had to use Google to figure it out) 

aka 3.15 miles! Yah go me! I love technology. 

This morning my prayers changed my life. 

I realized today that I DO have faith and I haven't just been hoping I do. 

Trusting the Lord makes everything so much easier.

who knew? - jokes.

I really do trust him with my life, which is funny that it took me this long to fully realize it.  

Even the hardest, worst, more terrible things seem to lose their value when I remember that the Lord WILL take care of me, I just need to trust that he is. 

Please know, if anything today, that the Lord will take care of you too, no matter what. is happening in your life. 

Because if I can go to being completely at peace in about 7 min this morning in my prayers, so can you. 

ps. Also, you're probably loved by me if you are reading this so that should make you feel good too. that's all. 

Kirra Jamison love.

Found this bomb artist on the blog seesaw.

which is pretty much the best blog ever, I love it so very much, you should check it out if you enjoy radical things..

& I fell in love with her within 2 minutes.

These are some of my faves.

SO sweet huh! 

Check out her full website here.

Also, I'm loving this album lately. 

Pumped up kicks you've probably heard but check out miss you, waste, I would do anything for you, and call it what you want. they are swell tracks as well. 

I Would Do Anything For You - Foster The People by GazelG

Last but not least, I jammed to Lykke Li whilst working in my garden yesterday. It was a legit jam sesh full of singing to my tomatoes and dancing to my cantelope.
Sometimes I love not really having roommates around, cuz I don't have people to answer to anyone of what the heck I am doing. Especially to my fruits and veggies in the backyard.

Oldy but goody.

Lykke Li - Little Bit by penguinslairrr


ps.
1.MOVING OUT NEXT WEEK! sad to leave my roomies, but its good to move forward! also feeling disgruntled that I didn't purchase prints of my favorites at the met.. stupid decision.. my walls will be so bare.. must create!!
2.school starts in two weeks!  the line up - 2d design, 3d design, art history, newswriting, english, maybe photography if I get in the waitlist, beginning ceramics (waitlist as well) , french year I, & my art minor will be almost complete while I apply for my journalism major!
3. 3 more chapters and I'm done with the BoM. Pretty stoked about it.
4. Institute classes: family history duh, ... something else I feel is good, & a scripture based class like D+C or Bom or something. I love learning about the gospel, I feel like a sponge! Gimme more!
5. CAN NOT wait for my friends to come back so I have people to play with again!!!!!! Yay for friends.
6. I seriously love my job. Everyone that works there are just such good kind people. It's really a great thing to be excited to go into work everyday.

Life. is. so. good. to. me.

Happiness. is. happy. to. feel. again.

Thank you. Lord.

I. am. glad. to. be. with. you.

and. you. with. me.

that's all.

FRIENDSHIP.

The 14th of August and On.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

Thank you Lord for hurting with me in the present, so as to be better for the future.

I am grateful for this gift of more time and better understanding.

You bless me more than I can see, know, or can ever deserve.

What a miracle you are everyday in my life.

Here's to a new beginning today & the rest of my future!

I know you will be right by my side the whole way.

Dear Tomorrow,

please be gentle. 

please be kind. 

please pass away quickly. 

please be distracting. 

please be understanding. 

please keep me busy working. 

please bless no one yells at me at work or is rude. 

Cuz  tomorrow I will be fragile. 

I will be more than fragile. 

Let's be honest. 

Please know I am grateful for this day 

for giving me what I know now 

for the opportunity to have learned vital things 

for having more time to myself & with the Lord that I know I need

to have more time to become the person I know I can reach now

to have the time to be able to focus on drawing closer to the lord and to be better in the long run 

I am grateful I have the time I need to become the person I know I can.  

please be full of love and kindness 

please be tender and soft 

please don't let me have too much time to think

please bless the walk in freezer in the back will be empty if I need it to be at work

please bless I wont take too long, my waterproof mascara will do it's duty and no one will notice

please bless when I come back out, I will be okay, and no one will suspect a thing

please bless I wont need that, but who am I kidding I know I most likely will

So please just bless it will get over with quickly
and the next day will come. and this all will be just a terrible memory in the past.
And I can forget and move forward
after tomorrow I will be free

please just pass away just like any other normal day only maybe a little faster. 

Because my heart breaks at the thought of what today was supposed to be 

and what it isn't now 

even though I'm grateful because I know I have this time to do a lot of things I need to 

before I feel like I'm in the right place for that

and how I could have thought I was back then I will never know 

the time for me being by myself is needed right now

It still just hurts. kills. mutilates. and then hurts again. 

So if I have ever asked for anything life 

and needed it badly 

tomorrow would be the day to just please go easy

Dear tomorrow, 

please have mercy on me.

I am very fragile this day, and I would love to make it out in one piece. 

thanks so very much 

Yours Truly, 

Chelsea Lynn  

ps.  I have an undying faith that The Lord is always with me and this is the exact thing I need right now. His comfort is reliable, steadfast and true. 

Ask me how I could get through days like tomorrow without him and I would laugh in your face at the mere absurdity of the question. It's amazing how much peace it brings though knowing you're doing what the Lord wants you to no matter how hard it is.

However, your prayers are welcomed.

Heaven knows I will need them. 

What better day for learning, feeling the Lords arms around me & growth? 

Happy August 13th everyone. 

More & More of NYC

So I have posted like 2 times in 20 min because for some reason the pictures don't work on my computer so I have to borrow my roommate's, who I believe is probably getting rather sick of me always having it ( I know I would let's be honest) So I am trying to blog all my pics in a timely manner to let her have her stuff back. Here is my trip in a nutshell, a rather large nutshell. Like a walnut shell. yep.

CHELSEA MARKET
it was a way cool place for obvious reasons

 I ate here. It was delicious. Oh and by myself. Loved it. Bucket List - check! 

Also, didn't know it was water in the tall green bottle for the longest time, so I didn't drink it for fear of having to tell the Bishop I got drunk on accident by myself in New York...

The people who named this town knew what was up, that's all I have to say. 

 BROOKLYN

this was street art called "cereal killers" way clever huh! love mister toucan with the bomb. 

THE Beacons Closet! (see earlier post for the deets) 

delish mac & cheese shop called Brooklyn Mac. Never knew Mac & Cheese could be so good! 

CENTRAL PARK

Amer Apare tiger dress. $10 at Beacon's. It's rather strange but I was drawn to it. 

Art Museums 
MoMA, The Met & Guggenheim

 Guggemheim

The Met. sigh.

The MoMA

Starry Night

Monet

A really unique Monet
(he usually doesn't use such bold reds mostly blues and greens throughout all his peices, this may have been accounted for when he had eye issues that made him go colorblind for a bit but no one really knows)

Salvador Dali

Picasso

Can't remember the name of this one but the story behind it is my favorite.

  Pollock - one. number one signifies him not being under the influence of drugs or alcohol and being one with his art and himself. It's awesome.

Droog furniture in the MoMA. I went to this store in Vegas, this stuff is le

This was a sweet clock in the MoMA, the little sweeper men push a line of rubble for the second hand. It was a little tiring to watch but way neat.

They're just keeping the time! 

Dog Sitting 

Loved these little guys. Such good little snuggelers. This was a great funny night. 2 Jane Austen movies later we end up in bed with them just cuddling up. Presh! 

Anyways that is all for now, it is getting late and I still need to read before I get too tired and conk out! 

FYI Ether is amazing!! The brother of Jared is amazing!! I'm loving it so much! 

Goodnight to All & here's to a morning someday waking up to my own little pup snuggling way too close to me. 

05. The Civil Wars - Poison & Wine by jensen-lips