Get out.

So, yesterday was Memorial Day & I HAD to get out.

No work = Salt Lake to visit one of my dearest friends Kristyne Lish. It was so good to get out of Logan even just for the night.

Started off with a trip to the Gateway where I picked up these sweet little treasures.

Then we decided to go to Brugge's. Yumm. 

Kristyne lives in a little place in Sugarhouse. I feel as though I might feel a relocation coming on.. Just throwing the idea around. Yeah, I loved it that much. It was a good weekend?..Monday/Tuesday? It was just good. 

Also we watched the Bachelorette. BAH. I don't even remember her name, but she is super annoying. Don't think I will watch it as religiously as I did the Bachelor, cuz I don't want to get addicted to it.

Anyways, on the way home I stopped at Pictureline (^^) to get some much needed 120 film. There are no words. It was a fantastic place that I highly recommend. 

Also this, 

MADISON WATERS 

GET TO LOGAN. 

THIS INSTANT. 

that's all. 

friendship.

Sun of a Gun.

- Sun Of A Gun (Yuksek Remix)

Oh Land.

Just discovered her & am in love.

This remix is legit, and the original is equally excellent.

Look into her. It will make you happy.

Happy Memorial Day.

Gramma G.

Just read THIS TALK about the Lords timing, it pretty much made my night. Please read if you desire, it's a good one.

Anyways, yesterday I got the opportunity to help Gramma G plant flowers in her backyard. (My cool elderly neighbor.)

Confession: Secretly I've always wanted like.. an elderly friend. Who gives me her years of wisdom in advice and who I can help not be so lonely and conversation starved. I've been to visit nursing homes, but those kinda creep me out.. They smell really weird and there's always freaky show tunes playing somewhere unknown in the background.. Anyways, It's a great thing! I am so grateful to be able to push her wheelbarrow around her yard and listen to her stories about her genealogy of pioneers who crossed the plains.

She is 95 years old, still living by herself, widowed 20 years, and has pink hair. 


She told me she isn't the sort of woman who needs a man. :)

But her little wedding ring is ever present on her finger, probably never taken off since the day he gave it to her. It breaks my heart that they have been apart so long, he had a brain tumor and died at 50 something. I hope when I am 95 I can still have a little ring on my finger from back when I was young and found a wonderful person to spend my whole entire life with. She talks about her testimony and she asks about my life and how I am doing. She told me that growth only comes from trials, and how she never thought many of the things in her life would happen to her, but for her to grow they needed to happen.

For some reason when I spend time with her I realize that in twenty years, none of the things that are happening to me now will really matter. She makes me remember that life works out. And when your old and gray nothing really matters but your children, grandchildren, great grandchildren, and your garden. This gives me comfort, and I'm glad I learned to find joy in serving, cuz I cherish the time I get to help her lift her heavy bags of fertilizer and shovel out the holes she needs for her rose bushes.

Mostly I just really want to be made into the kind of woman who can marry someone and spend the rest of my life with them, and then some. I'm glad the Lord is teaching me things everyday so that I can be that kind of person when the time comes. In His time, & my perfect time.

"We prepare in the way the Lord has directed. We hold ourselves in readiness to act on the Lord’s timing. He will tell us when the time is right to take the next step. For now, we simply concentrate on our own assignments and on what we have been asked to do today. In this we are also mindful of the Lord’s assurance: “I will hasten my work in its time, ...It is not enough that we are going in the right direction. The timing must be right, and if the time is not right, our actions should be adjusted to the Lord’s timetable as revealed by His servants."


"Do not rely on planning every event of your life—even every important event. Stand ready to accept the Lord’s planning and the agency of others in matters that inevitably affect you. Plan, of course, but fix your planning on personal commitments that will carry you through no matter what happens. Anchor your life to eternal principles, and act upon those principles whatever the circumstances and whatever the actions of others. Then you can await the Lord’s timing and be sure of the outcome in eternity. ”  
- Taken from the above mentioned talk




Happy Sabbath friends. Love you. 

My Favorite.

This is my favorite. Love this song, wish they would'nt have bailed out with Hot Chip last year.

Please bless one day I can walk by a scene so marvelous. Enjoy.

Patience is Hard.

There comes a point in life where you have to realize you did everything you could.
And the only thing left to do is have faith that the Lord will work everything out for the best.

Every day, every minute, & every second, you have to have faith in this. To avoid being swallowed up in sadness and regret.

Throughout being subjected to everyone's unwanted advice and unthoughful prodding, their unwarranted thoughts as to what they think is going to happen, and to tell you what to think and how to act, there comes a point where nothing can be done, no words can be said to fix it, no one really knows what will happen, and nothing can make you feel better.

With exception only of the knowledge of this,


The Lord's time is ALWAYS the perfect time. 


The things that are happening in your life right now are MEANT to happen.  They are all happening in the perfect time for you, for optimal growth and learning. 


You are in the perfect place in your life to handle them, you are in the exact position that the Lord needs you to be. 


Because his plan for you is PERFECT, no matter how you feel. 

The only thing left to do is just keep going. You have to push through it all, and submit your will to Him so one day you can be delivered out of this, when you have passed through it and been molded into the person he wants & knows you to be.


Because one day, He will hug you and say good job, I'm proud of you, you did it, and you did it well.

And you will then be thankful for all the things that brought you there, no matter what.

But for now you have to trust. It's all you can do. You can fight it and make it a hundred times harder or you can submit that He knows what is best for you, and you can trust that and make it a hundred times easier.

It's not going to be easy by all means, but it wouldn't make you who he knows you can be if it was. You would still be a spoiled brat if life was easy, and you would die a spoiled wrinkly brat and all this would be for nothing.

So trust this moment. Trust the Lord and push through this situation no matter how hard. Push through, asking the Lord for help along the way. Trust and have faith, and one day you will wake up and realize that it was for your good and you wont feel like an idiot for fighting Him all the way. (You know the feeling).

Today I remembered this, and it has been a better day ever since. Here's to that day when I wake up and understand this and am eternally grateful for this time. Until then, I pray for patience, strength, long suffering, and gratitude for this day, today.

Phin My Love.

Dear Life, 

Thank you for giving me my love. 

His name is Phineas. 

It was supposed to be the name of my son, but I've replaced my children with this for now. 

aka Phin the Schwinn, (jk it's a Western Flyer.) 

I finally broke down and bought a bike, and I'm so excited not to pay $4 gas this summer. 

Thank you man from Layton on KSL, you have made all my dreams come true. 

Now all it needs is a little basket to keep my trinketry. 

Do you have a bike? 

If so let's go for a ride together when the sun shines. 

Life is good.  

Time flies.

I can't believe it has just been one week. 

I feel like a completely changed person. 

I'm eternally grateful the Lord gave me this week. 

So many things.. I can't even explain. 

Well I guess I could if I had the time, but I don't on here. 

I'm excited for church tomorrow.

I'm excited to see what the Lord has in store for me.  

Happy Sabbath everyone.  

In order of the Sabbath I posted some of my very favorite Ensign articles.  

Please Enjoy and pray for good weather tomorrow, so the temple grounds sunday aftenoon ritual can commence.

Love You All. 

April  2010 Ensign  - Confidence Test, From  Fear to Faith.

& this. 

&  This if you haven't had your fill. 


"But please have faith, and join that faith with works. The Lord is aware of you as individuals and of your particular circumstances. He will bless you. He will assist you in bringing to pass that which is right and which you righteously desire. Please have faith."

Garden & Rapture.

Why do I love this so much? Is it because it is painfully true in certain situations? perhaps.

all I can say is, Yesss pleaaasee.  

Also,
With the help of my friend's new NPO (ree) called Grow to Grow
I put a garden in my backyard today. Complete with tilling, top soil and fertilizer.
 yeah we don't mess around. 

The Farmers Market this morning gave me my tomatoes, cucumbers, icebox watermelon, and sugar snap peas. 

Summer Project!
Super excited to plant next week.

Since your still here, I hope you didn't sell off everything you had to show your faith that the world was ending today at 6 and you would be taken away to an eternal state of bliss.
I was thinking of starting my own npo called Rescue the Raptured.. or Unraptured I guess.

The mission statement is basically giving aid to those who have nothing now and wake up tomorrow on the rainy streets and not on billowing fluffy clouds. We talked about it at the farmers market today and decided it would also be fitting to have a friendly Raptor icon.

Let me know if you want to sponsor us.


The Lord is focusing on teaching me patience & hope and the importance of serving these passed days. Yesterday was a hard day, but today is a better one. He's still with me and were still battling everyday together.

I am blessed.



Till next time.

Another day, another life changing lesson.

All I want to do today is sit in the temple and listen.

Is it weird that all I wanted to do yesterday was read my scriptures? 

Don't people joke about staying home to read their scriptures? 

I made myself go to FHE yesterday upon the advice of the bishop, and I'm so happy the Holy Ghost prompted me to do so that morning too, as hard as caring about being social and awkward it is right now, it was hard at first but it got better and I sortof had fun and felt better. 

I've learned through this time that I need to listen and heed to the Holy Ghost's somewhat uncomfortable directions, as weird and scary as they may be. 

Because they are the things I really need to do even if I don't understand them and they are the last things I want to do.  

And so the learning continues. 

Add one more to the many things that I learned now that will benefit my entire life from this time forward. 

Today the direction of the day is to go to the temple. One day at a time, His voice is easier to recognize, and His tender mercies more frequent and evident. I am getting stronger, wiser, and closer to the Lord and the knowledge of what I need to do to get me where he wants me to be. 

Today he told me He was pleased with me. I would go through it all over again 10 times because of that.

I am feeling like this will not last forever, and I feel a growing peace that everyday I have faith and do his will,  is a day closer to a better tomorrow.

My challege for you today is to heed the uncomfortable promptings of the Holy Ghost in your life and record how you were blessed for it after. It changes your perspective and your willingness to do his will because I know it has changed mine. 

Status update.

today it came down to this.

Your relationship with Rick Champlin will be canceled upon saving.

Wow, Thanks so much for the warning, facebook..  

douchebag program..

I'm not going to pretend I'm not sad. I have never loved like this and planned my life with someone only to watch it..yeah. Sad isn't even really the word but on the cautious side of making people think I need to be put on suicide watch, I will spare my true feelings and leave those only for my journal and my bffs. Plus I'm trying not to focus on it. So for the record, drum roll please ..

I'm really going to be okay and I truly, with all that is left of my heart believe everything is going to work out for the best, whatever it may be.

It is really the best of times and the worst of times as cliche as that sounds.. I should be in bed still, eating gross amounts of chocolate, and going through 12 tissue boxes and watching cheesy love movies & cursing those idiots right? But this is it, I'm not going to do that. I've been to that place before and it's really not that satisfying.. plus, I have too many things to learn and be happy for.

I have this wonderful person in my life called Heavenly Father. This man (if you will) loves me more then I could ever comprehend, never leaves my side, and holds me all I want and whenever I ask. He always knows my exact pain and feelings, and sends me kind loving friends to show me they love me when he cannot physically be here. I have learned this passed week more then ever that Heavenly Father knows and loves me. Words cannot express how this has changed my life in this short time.He gives me peace when nothing can seem to calm me and gives me hope when everything is worse then you can imagine it could be. So why would I question his judgement and sit and waste my time while getting bloated off chocolate and spray cheese?

While holding me for about 36 hours straight now, today he told me I was going to be okay. It was in a way where you know what he says cannot be anything but stone cold fact.

I trust him more today then anytime in my life. I have never been closer to him then I am right now. He pushes me to be better and he loves me enough to make me grow into the person he knows I will someday become. Even today I can say I feel like I have came leaps and bounds from who I was just 4 days ago and have been taught so many things that I greatly value and will take with me for the rest of my life. Is it due to the fact that I am constantly engulfed in the BOM to distract myself from painful memories, or that I have semi permanent carpet indents on my knees and wet spots on my bed above them? possibly.

I'm really glad I learned these things now, before I got married, cuz they're really important things, and I might not have learned them if this wouldn't have happened right now, and I wouldn't be the best person I could possibly be if I never had this opportunity and time to learn it.

I decided this summer is going to be me & the Lords summer.  I want to continue to draw closer to him so he can teach me the things I need to know and bring me closer to the person he knows I am destined to be. So when the time comes that I get engaged again (whenever that will be, heavens) I can be a more complete and wise help meet to my hubby and bring more wisdom to the relationship from the things I was open to the Lord to teach me right now.

I want to be married and that is something that has not died throughout all of this. I have a greater desire to have a family and go to the temple with my eternal companion, but I feel like the Lord is giving me a kick to get me there prepared in every way. He is looking out for me so he can make me the best me,so I can have the best marriage, & have the best relationship with my husband, and gain the best knowledge and experiences to raise my family in righteousness.

I am so very thankful that he has redirected me at this time to give me the opportunity to be the best person I can be first, and learn important things now. What a tender mercy he has blessed me with to be willing to do this for me even though I know it makes him sad to see two of his beloved children reeling in heartache and pain. I know he is crying with us, and is hurting with us, but He loves us enough to give us only the very happiest life we can have and he will not sell us short. I know with Him as sad as me, we can get through it together and I can be better and stronger and have a greater faith after. I am so grateful to him only allowing the best life for me, even if to the world and the outsider and to my limited knowledge this may seem like a tragic ending, it really is one of the best things that has ever happened to me and I am so very thankful for this time and for him making it happen.

I look forward to the future with a broken but hopeful heart, a willingness to follow his will and guidance, and the surety that if I keep having faith in him & his plan for me, when it's right, heavenly father will happily grant me the greatest blessing possible at the greatest time for me to receive it.

Thanks to all my beautiful friends who have given me their love and support at this hard time, you will be blessed for your kindness to hold & cry with me physically, at a time when He cannot. I truly love you all.

(stole this quote from madi's blog cuz it fits me all too well right now.) 

"Things work out, it isn't as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out, don't worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. If you do your best, it will all work out. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. If we will put our trust in him, if we will pray to him, if we will live worthy of his blessings, he will hear our prayers."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

Advise from Elder Busche.

This helps me right now.
I'm so very thankful for my friends and my Heavenly Father at this time.
I'm thankful for the things Heavenly Father is teaching me and this opportunity to grow closer to Him.
I have faith that what is best for me will happen
I will be taken care of by my Father in Heaven.
I have faith and nothing can change that.

Sonnet 116

Sometimes when everything is going wrong in life

You recognize who & what matters most. 

This has been something I have needed to realize this week.

I haven't taken time to step back in a while and remember why I am here and what I should be working towards. 

I am thankful for this time and this lesson Heavenly Father has reminded me of; that no matter what happens in life He is always the only one I need to focus on and can rely on with my whole heart.

Also, I realized my full proof theory is true that there is a no situation Taylor Swift can't help & empathsize with me. :)

I hold onto the night

 you looked me in the eye 

and told me you loved me 

were you just kidding? 

 & I stare at the phone

 he still hasn't called 

 & then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all 

and you flash back to when he said forever & always..

Was I out of line?

 did I say something way too honest 

made you run and hide like a scared little boy 

I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute 

now i'm not so sure 

so here's to everything 

coming down to nothing 

here's to silence 

that cuts me to the core 

where is this going 

thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymore.  

It rains in your bedroom 

everything is wrong

 it rains when your here 

and it rains when your gone

but I was there when you said forever and always..

I swear she reads my journal.

 However, I've never felt more peace at a time when I should be freaking out the most. 

I needed to be reminded of this lesson at this time. I'm happy He's still in this with me, always pushing me to learn and grow and holding my hand every step of the way. I'm forever grateful he has never left me and never will.  I look toward the future with faith that everything happens as He would have it be.
& I know now more then ever that no matter what happens from here, He loves his daughter, and will never leave me to work through it alone.

On an additional closing note, Shakespeare said it first, and best.