It pays to be a stalker.

Once upon a time there was this kid that was in my math class. He who shall not be named, was judged by me as kinda a complete douche. Last night, I heard him complaining about how this girl thinks he is douchey for wearing white sunglasses... uh yeah... he should definitely listen to this girl, set his Affliction, white stitched True Religion, & Ed Hardy closet on fire, and get a real girlfriend other then the half naked ones on his hot rod posters hanging in his room. Let's just say it made me have instant deep love for this girl for recognizing a jersey shore boy for what he is.

Upon stalking blogs (one of my favorite passed times) I found her blog!! I read about three of her posts and pretty sure I want to join her fan club and tell her how I wish she could be my friend for life. Please love your life and creep on her blog, it seriously is THE funniest thing I have read in a long time and so spot on!

Read Here & Here. Be prepared for a girl crush, this blog is my new favorite.

Dear Life, Thanks for Everything.

Sometimes life catches you off guard. Throws you a fast one and in an instant your outlook or mood is completely changed. It's amazing how important things in your life, can give you huge, sometimes almost physical reactions. A well written song can pierce your heart or a familiar smell can instantly bring a thousand memories to flush back to you.

This is life. You live it and the world is what you remember from it. Sometimes in life you see people who are a part of you only from memories. I had the opportunity to see my friend who just returned from a mission and it was an odd feeling to see my friend revived from my memories. He was exactly the same but his life has changed too, and now I am back from his memories too. It is always interesting how we as individuals forget that everyone's life evolves and changes even if we aren't a part of it. It's weird to hear that they have changed and grown jsut as much as I feel like I have only in a completely different state of mind. I guess that is why I hate going home, because I always see the closest people to me change and have experiences that don't include mine anymore. (selfish I know, hate me for it.)

I've realized recently that I am not like many other people in this area. Sometimes, I feel a deep connection to people I hardly know.. like Last.. Wednesday I want to say? I went to a friend of a friends funeral, kinda just for moral support at first. It was really hard but good at the same time. It is weird, recently as I have been drawing closer to the spirit, I kinda have this 6th sense that I know and have a deep love for random strangers. The boy who died was one of them. I felt like I knew him for some reason.. and I felt like we were once close friends, and like that he was my brother. crazy.

It is amazing how safe and gaurded we as members are by living right and how many blessings come that we have no idea about just because Heavenly Father is watching over us. Like that step you missed that could've made you trip down the stairs, or that instant you just happened to look up and realized a semi was merging into you, or when you feel like you need to go a different way home by following a prompting and never find out why. All you know is that you got home safe in your bed. It's crazy, I can't wait for Him to show me all the times he saved me like those crazy youtube videos where people escape being hit by buses by inches by some miracle.

I have learned that life is a miracle everyday and not necessarily in a physical manner of life or death. Sometimes, we don't see these live saving miracles because they are disguised by what we see as trials, mistakes, or events that happen to us that to the world seem bad. But maybe our trials, though seemingly hard for us at one time or another, are really tender mercies. For me, I know the knowledge that I have about life, people, and Heavenly Father have not just come from the air. They came from trials, crazy events, and experiences that seemed very unpleasant. But I would never trade my knowledge of how to be kind, or how to help someone who might be in a similar situation as I once was, or of Heavenly Fathers love for anything. It's amazing to me that even though the world sees bad events as just that, it is almost a mercy that He gives us that we are complaining about. He is blessing us with knowledge that he gives freely but because of the wrapping, we are ungrateful and get angry at Him for it. I know this is easier said then done, but it is a huge goal of mine to take every experience given to me and take what I can to learn from it no matter how it is presented to me, and be grateful that I am still here, surrounded by people who love me and that I have the opportunity to continue to learn and grow with them. In turn being able to use the knowledge given to me to help those around me who are confused and wanting help from someone who understands.

I might be rambling, and it might be a no brainer to everyone else, but knowledge is a gift. A gift that is given to us freely and lovingly. It seems crazy to be angry at He who gives it to us when he is only wanting to bless us, and still gives it to us knowing that we will hate him for it. What an amazing, loving, patient, Father we have. I know I do not deserve all that he does for me, but I am trying harder everyday to become that person one day in the far far off future :)

Anyways, just some of the many thoughts that have been bouncing around in my little head. Hope they meant something and weren't just letters strung together for you. Have a wonderful day & know that someone loves you for everything you are.

Saturday Afternoon @ Temple Square

This passed Saturday was a great one. I had the opportunity to make the trip to SLC and see my mother and cousin!! It was great to be at Temple Square again and be able to spend that time with my family and catch up with my lovely mother. I don't get to see her enough and pretty sure last time we were at temple square together I was about ten.

Also this, did you know that Bountiful is pretty close to Salt Lake? Well, it is. If anyone was wondering and might potentially turn around because they thought they passed it but really it is pretty far from Logan. Just letting you know so you don't make that silly mistake that someone might have this passed weekend. (Hi, it is confusing okay!)

Anyways! Yep. Went to the visitors center and everything was so great, and totally reminded me how Joseph Smith is serisouly THE most amazing person. I don't know anyone who went through the things he went through and still be so SOLID. Makes me want to know that in me though someday. He is amazing, that's all.

Also, the sister missionaries challenged me to pray about a ...mission. This is my first response... meeeerrrrr..ree..

But who knows.. I guess I will see what I need to do in time.. but can I just say that scares me a baby bit to be in my head... but I mean I'm not completely shunning it out .. it's just weird..

Moral of the story, The church is true. Joseph Smith is incredible person and did so much for me that I pretty much take for granted everyday. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have one clue about one thing. crazy. How does a person ever say thanks for that? hah let me know if you think of anything.

Love this.

Friendship Shoot

Once upon a time I have this internship with Aya Photography & SDesigns Photography here in Logan. Mr. Levi Sim teaches a couple of photo classes, and needed models, so I volunteered me and my friends! It was serisouly THE funnest day, and am now convinced we all would win ANTM hands down. These are some of my favorites by Heather Waegner for Aya Photography.

Hi, This one is probably one of my very favorites and one of the first ones she did. This is my beautiful roommate Rhianna, ehem I mean Lauren aka CHunCHie.

She turns 21 today, and what glorious time it is. I am so thankful for her in my life, she is an amazing person and one of the most real girls I have ever met. She brings light into my life everyday & is freaking hilarious. HAPPY BIRDDAY CHUNCH!

It's amazing when you go to sleep at night and realize that your life is everything you ever wanted it to be.

Thanks to everyone who made this possible and participated! Love you girls so much and you are all so beautiful inside & out. Love my gorgeous, wonderful, amazing girls! (That includes the ones who couldn't make it too)

If You Try to Hold Me Back I Might Explode

Went on my first REAL shoot today..

Once upon a time I got what some might call a baby internship with two REAL working photographers.

Yeah, it's kinda a big deal to me :)

I was so excited when they said I could tag along on their shoots to learn and help them with their equipment and such! I figured it wouldn't be all the time, cuz I mean these are pros they don't have time for us little pee on beginners right? Wrong! Can I just say that there are people in the world still that are giving of their time when they don't necessarily need to be. Which is incredibly refreshing. These people are so kind to answer all my 11455 questions and show me the little tricks of the trade.

Today I learned about aperture, shutter speed, different lenses & their uses, lighting techniques, remote control flashes & the menu items of Smokin' Blues BBQ.

Yep. We shot a lot of mouthwatering smoked meats and southern dishes, I'm guessing for the menu's or just advertisement. Pretty sure it was amazing, but next time I am definately bringing a pen and paper! So much to learn, it leaves me wishing to be a kitchen sponge, so I could soak it ALL in. Love every minute of it, and Monday they want to shoot me and my friends! So I'm pretty excited about that too! Kinda nervous to be on the other side of the lens but it should be pretty sweet and artsy so I'm excited to get some friendship pictures.

Girl Talk, Modest Mouse, Beirut, Matisyahu, all in a matter of weeks. I am already anticipating & excited for a grand time with my buddy Mr. Bury. Now only if I could get my hands on some Regina, Ingrid, or Missy love...(in a completely platonic way.. ha) Hopefully some country is in store as well, we shall see!

Ask & you shall receive. In ways that usually make you say in the end, Oh my thank you!! I really dodged a bullet. I am realizing this with every passing day.

I've been playing my guitar A LOT more. It's so nice how music can comfort you in weird ways. I can actually play songs now.. so it's a little bit fulfilling having baby calluses :)

Also, this week has been so crazy and filled with zero sleep and more fun then a girl should be allowed to have, it's made me remember a little something I kinda forgot about myself..

Sometimes.... I can't be Tamed.

:)

Summer Adventures, So far...

Do you ever think about how much Heavenly Father just looks down and laughs at us?

Sometimes I worry about THE dumbest things..

After a lot of scripture study I felt like someone said Chelsea, you're fine, Chiiiillllll. :) So..

I feel Sheepish.

Heavenly Father will not let my life go on a path where I can't learn. I figure as long as I am constantly looking to learn from life and what it throws at me, He can do the rest to get me to be the person he wants me to become.

It's weird how to me things are a huge deal, but to him who is all knowing, he probably just laughs that I am such a silly human. :)

So glad he has an everlasting Love for me cuz I sure need it!

Anyways, Summer is in full swing! I was nervous about being in Logan this summer cuz I didnt want to be left all to my own self, but it has been a blast! Once upon a time I have this friend named Court and he lives on a Dairy farm. It's pretty much the greatest place I have been this summer. These are jsut some things that I have done there,

1. Riding Four Wheelers

2. Driving a giant Yellow tractor

3. Letting Baby cows suck on my finger :)

4. holding newborn baby kittens

5. Milking a Giant cow

6. Climbing up giant 60 ft silos (sp?)

7. Holga-ing rusty farm equipment

8. Climbing up the side of barns to a secret fort

Love Farms & the smell of cows and hay! Sheesh life out there is happy, outside in the fields and being outside the city I realized is sustainable happiness.

These past couple weeks have been filled with summer time activities such as -

Rodeos

Off Roading under the stars

Crafting

Weddings

Road Trips

Going to Temple Grounds to read, ponder, write.

Running on the River trail.

Barbeques

Bonfires

Letting the Outdoors heal you.

Being surrounded by Wonderful people all day long!!

Hi, if you havent noticed, I am greatly blessed. So grateful.

LOVE.THIS.

Just ask him how he made it

He'll tell you faith and sweat

And the heart of a faithful woman,

Who never let him forget,

Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I Love You

Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense

Never let your prayin knees get lazy

And love like crazy

Always treat your woman like a lady

Never get to old to call her baby

Never let your prayin knees get lazy

And love like crazy