Pinch Me.

I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL.

I can't even explain how glorious it feels having

no weight whatsoever

on my shoulders.

Complete & Udder Freedom

That's all I can say.

Cue the Yampa River, please.

Maybe by the time I get home

this

will have arrived from Hong Kong!

Everything just got a whole lot more wonderful.

I love my life even more then before, (which was a lot).

Summer, I have a deep love for you and now we are reunited.

Joyous. Jubilant. Ecstatic. Sweet.

I think I might be in Love.

Let us Rejoice & let the good times roll.

Tycho - Coastal Brake. Yep.

I Can Sleep When I'm Dead.

Once upon a time there was two weeks left of school. I had all my projects & homework planned out to do probably on the last day possible like I always do them. I have this one final for Natural Disasters class, and then it's smooth sailing till my close friends two weddings the weekend of the beginning of summer!!

(Hi, I just said the beginning of summer, yeah it's finally happening, my dreams from freezing my A off all winter are coming true, its a glorious feeling!!)

Anyways, so every things going pretty smooth & one day Paul Jones comes to me and says, "Babbitt! We're doing a river trip in Colorado, you have to come! It's the week of finals, but you only have one so you should try and get out of it!" So of course my mind says no Chels, don't even. You know how college is, and no teacher in their right mind is going to let you get out of anything. School is first priority, can you make this even work? You don't have money to do this, it's the last week of school, Then I said, "Self, its a river trip, for free, in Colorado, and I would have finals week off..."

Cut to this week. One email later and I have no school next week. My final is on Friday. Yes, this Friday. So this smooth week instantly turned into the busiest week of the entire semester. Here it goes.

- 63 Question Grammar Challenge Quiz due tonight at midnight.

- Final Portfolio for Dress & Humanity due tonight at midnight.

- Editorial paper for English due Tomorrow

- Book Report for Dress & Humanity due Friday morning. (don't worry havent read one thing..)

- Final for Natural Disaster Friday at 2:30.

Not including school I have to:

- Pack the entire contents of everything I own. Since I will be on the river all week I will have no time to pack and be out of my apt the day after I get home.

- Pack weekend bag when I get home from the river trip for two weddings I have that weekend. One of which I am going to be a bridesmaid the next day from when I get home and I am staying in Salt Lake for the other wedding I am going to that Monday.

Hi, you're my best friend, and now you're getting married, and you're adorable and I will miss you. True Love Forever. Oh with him too probably :)

Hi, I have a deep love for both of these people. Oh, just makes me so happy that they found eachother! Marriage!

Back to my to do list,

- Clean my apt for move out checks.

- Find somewhere to store pretty much everything I own for the weekend. I am going to be in between houses so hopefully I wont have to lug everything down to salt lake with me and back.

- Shop & plan for food for the river trip and prep them.

- Buy wedding presents.(What do you get for your best friend when she gets married????)

- Figure out my summer class schedule & meet with my counselor. (Hi, she doesn't give a *&$%)

-Find a summer Job & work it around my summer class schedule

Then after this maddening time, I will get to move into my new apt with two of the greatest friends. So excited for all that is to come these next couple of weeks, but thinking back I will miss this semester and living with great girls only bunks, halls, and balcony's away. Love ship to them. But don't worry, they will only be streets away now so maybe it will do me good to get some exercise in my blood! I will miss you junior year, you were great to me but now I have so many things to look forward to!!

1. Hi, Maui - Yep. I couldn't go this spring break but guess what, my flight is booked for may 23rd FO FREE! My step mom is getting remarried (weird but it makes sense don't worry) and she's taking me and my sister to her wedding. woop! Just got to bring a little spending money in my pocket and call it good! Yes, I do love my life.

2.Optimas is Prime - Once upon a time he got sick. 400$ worth of sick. I decided I HAD to take care of him. Now he is better, and I am poorer. But, it will be worth it. At least that's what I have to keep telling myself. Also this, even though he is better now, I'm still getting a cruiser for the summer, just gotta find a job. woop.

3. Missionaries - Hi, it's already been two years?!! Ask me if I'm excited to play guitar hero with Bj?

or playing super smash brothers with Landon?

or to visit Betos at 3 am with Cameron, Bj & Mike? or to hear stories about JJ dropping heavy objects on his head and having him fall over laughing again? or to listen to Steve's never ending sound effects and crazy antics about transformers and heroes?

or have Harry help me with my kayaking roll? or just being around funny Hi-I-Just-Got-Home missionaries? I seriously cannot wait for them to be home and to have my friends back!!!!!!!!!!

4. House - Yep. I have a house, and a yard, and a parking lot with no permit required, because it's mine. :) I have a room to paint & furnish however I desire, a kitchen to eat my meals with big windows and a paradise cove to..well.. you get the picture :) Also, my great friends live about 7 houses down. Can we talk about it? Mischief is all I have to say.

5. Major - Don't worry it's only my third year but I finally picked one. Well, art. Not sure about my emphasis. Either education with an emphasis in photo or maybe just photo or maybe something that catches me along the way.. either way, can we shout to the heavens that pretty sure after next semester my life will be fully consumed with art classes only. No more science quizzes, no more gay english grammar challenges, and most importantly no more math assignments. Let's cry together that I actually will enjoy school. Yep. Jesus Loves me very much.

Biggest Lesson of this Year - Heavenly Father will have his will be done. You can either submit your will to his and realize he knows what's best, or you can fight it, go crazy trying to control it, and then submit to his will after haha. Honestly, I'm glad I learned it well, sometimes you think you understand a concept and then you experience it and it ends up slapping you in the face. I'm glad i have a good knowledge of this now however, and will definitely exercise more patience and less arrogance next time I think that I know best. Until the next time I get to sit down, love you all! Future, I'm excited for you and all the adventures to be had! Make way for summer!!

Would You Rather?

Pay an acceptable amount of money for this one?
Or pay ten or so dollars more for THIS one!?

or THIS one?

OR even THIS one??

Should I be totally fine and a little boring, or should I be fun and more poor? That is the question... Either way, Holga for summer! Woop!

Brain-Wash

I need this, a brain wash. I have so many thoughts sometimes I feel like I can't keep up with my own brain. It's exhausting! I feel like a new beginning is just around the corner though, and no matter what, that gives me hope. Thinking about these last couple of weeks makes me stressed even just to imagine it. Do you ever look back at times in your life and say,

"Holy %@$*, I am so glad I am not at the place anymore! How did I even get through that?!

So, after looking back for too long, I am determined to stay focused on looking to the future, or else it will eat me alive like it has in the past. I want peace back in my life and I feel like it's slowly coming to me whatever may happen next.

Bottom line, I feel like I am a good person. I feel like I try to do what I know is right in situations, and I know that I have great worth no matter what people see.

So what do I really need to worry about? Heavenly Father will take care of me no matter what may come in my life. I know I have made mistakes and probably will continue to do so, but I will continue to learn from them and grow to be better for it too. So I'm determined with these thoughts in mind, to look to the future with a clear mind and a hopeful heart.

Also this, let's look forward to the summer, by making a list of all the things I want to do. Okay!

1. Learn to ride a longboard and not be scared.

2. Learn more songs on my guitar.

3. Get my roll back and kayak a baby bit.

4. Climb outside more then ever.

5. Be outside as much as possible

6. Get jobs and work, I guess. Make lots of money so I wont be poor next year.

7. Get a bike and ride it EVERYWHERE!

8. Go to places I have never been before (starting with Maui in May! woop!) Hopefully the oregon coast too sometime.. it's been a while.

9. Go to the temple & do baptisms.

10. Get a Holga, & a Nikon Cool Pix & take them everywhere & use them everyday!

11. Plant flowers outside my new house & take care of them.

12. Paint the walls & a tree in my new room.

13. Get used to being modest in the summer cuz there's usually people around :)

14. Take a road trip. (to a place other than Boise or Salt Lake..)

15. Mountain bike, hike & have bonfires in the canyon.

16. Get lots of scrapes & bruises. Without these, a good summer will not be complete.

"How you respond to challenges, can reset the rest of your life."

-Elder James Martino

Summer Resolution.

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My number one goal this summer is this: I don't want to use my car. I want to be out in the sunshine, warm wind in my face, basket full of treasures in the front, riding around Logan where ever I am called to be. This desire may be spawned from my car one day deciding everything needs to break at once costing me money I don't have/want to spend on it at this time. Sorry Optimus, I really need a break from your shiz. (In the past year I have put more then my tuition costs into him and he needs to stop eating my money!!) So, until I find some serious funds out in the summer air, I will be riding a bike, because believe it or not, buying a bike is going to be much less expensive than fixing everything wrong with my car. Yippee! Blessing in diguise? I think yes, maybe!

So, now the problem is I can't decide what to get, I want to buy a bike, maybe this one?


or this one..

I love this one too,


Also this, cupholders! WhaaYes please!


Also, I might want this basket, and its contents. :)


So, pretty much, I just need my tax return & help deciding..let me know what you think please!!

Story of My Life.

Once Upon a Time, a boy we shall call Werik Eynn & a girl we will call Irittany Bingalls, played an April Fools joke on our apt giving us upside down cups of Goldfish all over. 10 of them, (one dead) in total.

:::Cut to me as a 6 year old, crying for two days when I had to flush my first Goldfish after naming it, loving it, and telling all my 6 year old most important secrets to it. Still a sensitive subject, hate me for it:::

Yep.

:::Cut one more time to my 18th Birthday in my freshman dorm, when my sister tried to give me a goldfish on my birthday. An hour later, She left with the bag of fish upon my refusal of her gift:

Moral of the story, I hate when people give me Goldfish. It's like handing me depression in a plastic bag of water. I love them and then they die. One day of friendship, and then the next day of flushing to the porcelain gods. I tell people "Oh I know they will die probably, no big deal, in like two days," but secretly I am always holding out that they live maybe so we can be friends.. it could happen, maybe. You don't know!

So this whole weekend I have seen them drop like flies. The big ones, the little ones, the ones with white spots, the all orange ones, D E A D. By Sunday there were two left and I said listen, please don't die cuz you're my friends. I fed them, changed their water, talked to them, looked at them, put my shells from the california coast in their bowl so they would feel more like real fish in the sea, everything I could think of.. Then, my "friends" Case Chasillas, and Cody Carpenter (that one doesn't work..sorry haha) decided it would be great fun if while we were dying Easter eggs, we should dye the fish too. Don't worry the dye has vinegar and fizzy stuff in it. So after protecting them as best as I could, I was washing out the cups and found the green missing. I turned around and caught Cody with a green bowl of fish.

::NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!::::

I ran to my roommates fish tank and tried as fast as I could to scoop them out and put them with the other fish which I had been doing all week when I had too many to fit in my little bowl. After an agonizing 4 minutes I got the little guys in a bigger bowl and to safety. I told my friends to F off, an to never talk to me again.

Just kidding, they just went home a little later.

So, thinking I had saved them, I came to check on them the next morning. What I saw that morning will forever secure my awful experiences with goldfish and amplify my hatred for receiving them by ten fold. When coming back to check on the fish I peered into the tank and gasped in horror. Every. single. one of the fish. in the tank. were floating. belly up. at the top.

DEAD!

I killed all of them, I think!

Even my roommates fish!

Probably,the vinegar fish, had chemicals in them or something...

I HATE GOLDFISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I KILLED 21 FISH, IN THE PASSED WEEK. 10 OF THEM MINE!

9 GOLDFISH, 3 LONG TAIL THINGS, 2 GHOST FISH AND 4 BABY LONG TAIL THINGS.

I TRIED SO HARD TO LOVE THEM AND SAVE THEM AND I ENDED UP KILLING ALL OF THEM!!!

TO ALL THOSE WHO THINK GIVING FISH IS A FUNNY JOKE, PLEASE BELIEVE IF ANYONE TRIES TO JOKE ME WITH THEM, IT WILL BE YOUR LAST. I DO NOT TOLERATE DYING FISH IN MY PRESENCE. JUST WARNING YOU. YOU WILL DIE. I WILL MAKE SURE OF IT. THAT'S ALL.

This song, Penelope by Pinback, is hereby dedicated to all that have been lost this week.

RIP.

Easter Time

This is what I get when I try to get things done this weekend.

1. boredom

2. laundry

3. Going crazy for 10 minutes

4. more boredom

5. Cleaning

6. flushing dead fishies :'(

on the plus side:

1. Conference!! Love Elder Holland! So great. Can't wait for tomorrow's session!

2. Dancing & Singing as loud as I want in the ghetto laundry room while two stepping, jerking and dropping it in the mean time. Everyone should have this experience, I got caught singing twice, Hi embarrassing! Worth it!

3. Friday night was super fun! Gotta love new swimsuits from Victoria's Secret & hot tubbing & WINGERS!! Also, LOVE those Log Cabin boys.. and their friends :)

4. Channeling my inner Gaga..nervous

Hope everyone has a wonderful Easter time. I will be here hanging out with all my friends & family...aka the two remaining goldfish in my little tank.

Happy Easter. Jesus Loves Us.

Soundtrack of the Weekend:

Someone Great - LCD Soundsystem