25 or Better

Do you ever have a quiet feeling that you could be doing.. more?

That you could be helping others more

You could be developing yourself as a strong woman with concrete faith?

That maybe you could have developed your talents more instead of scanning instagram in your free time?

Or simply that in some ways you aren't living your life in a way that makes you better than you were yesterday?

I have been feeling like this lately. And let me tell you, the quiet disappointment at the end of the day spent on Netflix in my sweats is giving me a feeling that I'm wasting important time. To the point where I have decided that it is time that I win, over my lazy mind. Sometimes it seems that I am disappointed in the decisions I make with my time but then I think, okay well guess what lady, you can change the things you don't like. It is not that simple when the new episode of Downton is finally available online, which let's be real here, I will probably never turn down a new Downton episode, but I guess I needed to write this down so that I can hear myself say that the way I spend my time needs to be changed, and that I am going to begin winning and not being subject to my slothful mind. Because I am here to progress, and it is my #1 priority over my sweats (as much as I love them so so much)

I made some resolutions, even New Years ones dare I say. But the beautiful thing about having my birthday 7 days after the new year is that I can decide that this new year of my life, literally, is going to be different.

I'm too blessed, & I have been brought through too much to waste my time here.

So here's to working on some of these:

1. Begin daily scripture study with a thoughtful prayer.
2. Getting out of bed on time to HAVE meaningful scripture study.. let's be honest.
3. EAT  BREAKFAST !!
4. Write in my journal, recording tender mercies and daily revelation.
5. Have quality time with my Father in Heaven in the temple regularly.
6. Exercise specifically 2 times a week, but be active daily.
7. Keep school work organized in my planner
8. Pray specifically to gain/show a greater love for the people around me.

Just some little things I want to work on, to progress & work towards the person I know I am supposed to be. My favorite quote comes to mind -

"There is no passion to be found in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living." - Nelson Mandela

The beauty is that every day is a new opportunity to change, as cliche as that sounds. And I have found that change begins with doing the right thing just one time. However, the hardest time to change is right at the start when you are just beginning and wanting to change. But if you can just do one thing right, one time, and make each choice independent of everything else and focus on choosing the best option for you in the moment, you are already winning half the battle and beginning on a better path.

So here's to being 25 and actively working to become a better person with each daily decision.

Small side note:
25?! can you believe it? Here I come 25 or better activities, what up! For as much as I talk about being the old hag of Logan, UT, I am actually really excited to be 25. I feel like.. I am becoming a woman! Like, A REAL WOMAN, guys. With experience and wisdom and.. genuine sex appeal! Yeah I said it! Like an adult sexy woman who is not so much embarrassed or apologetic but confident and content with her self, flaws included. Not a little girl playing dress up like a woman, or a teen age girl who doesn't like herself or think she's beautiful without makeup and perfect hair, or a young adult trying to navigate the ever changing surroundings of college life, her beliefs and standards (which I kinda still feel like that but also moving onto more stable grounds an individual), but I actually feel like I am on the verge of becoming someone who knows and loves who they are in a real way, without a Victoria's Secret body or a perfect resume of all the 'RIGHT' things someone is supposed to have accomplished. Someone who loves herself and knows she has great worth and is beautiful with her little muffin top, and graying hairs. I think 25 is going to be good to me, I have never felt more like me, more incredibly blessed and happy, and I am excited for what this years changes of graduation and what life has to bring!


Life Soundtrack as of late -

Walter Mitty Soundtrack is pure gold.
Jose Gonzalez – Step Out
Of Monsters And Men – Dirty Paws
Jose Gonzalez – Stay Alive

Also I have been loving the soundtrack from the movie Like Crazy. If you haven't seen it, it is a must! but be warned, I cry EVERY TIME. It is so tragically real, but is so incredibly beautiful. Below is the motion picture score.
Dustin O'Halloran – Arrivals N2