Playlist Favorites

So, I sleep at weird hours of the night because Hawaii kinda messed with my clock.

What a better way to use my new found insomnia to share my latest life playlists?

Love my new discoveries this past couple of days of traveling non stop.

& I'd like to share the love, please enjoy.

1. The House That Built Me

by Miranda Lambert

Let's talk about it, summer is all about country music. My most favorite part of the day is pumping the country when i shower and get ready. Miranda Lambert is amazing! This album rocks. Hopefully I get to see her live in concert this summer!! This song is adorable and might have almost made me cry when I first heard it. SO GREAT!

I know they say you can’t go home again
I just had to come back one last time
Ma’am I know you don’t know me from Adam
But these handprints on the front steps are mine

Up those stairs in that little back bedroom
Is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar
I bet you didn’t know under that live oak
My favorite dog is buried in the yard

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
This brokenness inside me might start healing
Out here it’s like I’m someone else
I thought that maybe I could find myself
If I could just come in I swear I’ll leave
Won’t take nothing but a memory
From the house that built me

Mama cut out pictures of houses for years
From Better Homes and Gardens magazine
Plans were drawn and concrete poured
Nail by nail and board by board
Daddy gave life to mama’s dream

You leave home and you move on and you do the best you can
I got lost in this old world and forgot who I am

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
This brokenness inside me might start healing
Out here it’s like I’m someone else
I thought that maybe I could find myself
If I walk around I swear I’ll leave
Won’t take nothing but a memory
From the house that built me

<3

1. The Only Exception by Paramore

even though I'm not in love, my life can relate to it a little and hopefully future times!

When I was younger

I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart

And I watched

As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that

She would never let herself forget

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love

If it does not exist

But darling,

You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm

Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't

Let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving

In the morning, when you wake up

Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing

Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

Love it.

2. Breakeven by The Script.

You've probably heard it, it's a frequent on the radio. It's that song I listen to the radio for and then get embarrassingly over joyed when it finally comes on :)

Basically, I just like how he sings it. The melody flows. It's a good jam to cruise to, or run to.

love it.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't breakeven.

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven.

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you ?

and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
I'm falling to pieces,
I'm falling to pieces.

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise word's gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven.

And, what am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces


Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm try and make sense of what little remains
'Cause you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break, no it don't breakeven.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
I'm falling to pieces

3. JOHNNY & JUNE by HEIDI NEWFEILD.

CAN. WE. TALK. ABOUT. IT?????

Seriously, I am obsessed.

First off, love country.

It always sings about strong love.

Okay yeah I'll admit some country is a little cheesetastic, but this song is pretty much my favorite right now.

Love the way the chorus explodes.

Gives me chills!

& let's be honest, who the freak doesn't want a love like johnny & june?

(It wasn't sappy, it was real, and strong for that matter! None of this pathetic bella swan damsel in distress crap.

June was a wild stallion, who just happened to fall in love.

& with a freaking Bad A johnny Cash who ended up loving her because she was strong too!

not just a stupid girl with nothing to contribute but their ability to be a trophy or be a needy, whimpy, helpless, ball of mascara in designer heels. don't get me wrong, I love a good red soled stiletto but really Americans? Can we move past it and have a meaningful life still too? )

Anyways! Love this song, get it from itunes if you like it, it's great!

Oh there's something 'bout a man in black

Makes me want to buy a cadillac,

Throw the top back

And roll down to Jackson town

I wanna be there on the stage with you

You and I could be the next rage, too

Hear the crowd roar,

Make 'em want more,

I'll kick the footlights out

I wanna love like Johnny and June

Rings of fire burnin' with you

I wanna walk the line,

Walk the line,

'Till the end of time

I wanna love,

Love ya that much

Cash it all in,

Give it all up,

And when you're gone

I wanna go, too

Like Johnny and June

I wanna hold you baby right or wrong

Build a world around a country song

Pray a sweet prayer,

Follow you there,

Down in history

More than life itself

No-one else

This endless promise

They don't make love like that anymore

Is that too much to be askin' for?

And when there gonna be no tears to cry,

Only memories of our lives,

They'll remember, remember

A love like that.

I wanna love like Johnny and June

Rings of fire burnin' with you

I wanna walk the line,

Walk the line,

'Till the end of time

I wanna love,

Love ya that much

Cash it all in,

Give it all up,

And when you're gone,

I wanna go, too

Like Johnny and June

Persuasion

So not a lot of people know this but I love Jane Austen. Always have since I was a little girl and my mom let me stay up on Sunday nights and watch PBS with her. Books, movies, I just like it cuz it is moral and I don't have to worry about skipping over parts or fast forwarding through crap. You could say I'm a big fan.

I just finished her book Persuasion, & it was great. It was an entertaining story and it made me really pay attention because her books arent easy reads with the old english way of speaking and writing. I highly reccomend it to anyone who likes a good CLEAN love story :)

although I must admit it was a little unrealistic but hey isn't that why we like em?

Also this, a week ago I went to the Logan Library and tried to look for some good reads for the summer and I couldnt really think of any. If you have suggestions I would love to hear em!

Next up on my reading list is the Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis (once started, but never finished) but I'm guessing that it will be a quick one (one quick one..) so I might just keep going and have a complete works of C.S. Lewis party this summer. woop get crazy!

PS. Hawaii was amazing, blog about when I get more time!

PPS. I miss my rommates & my home. Love when you walk into your apt and feel the spirit dwells there because the people you live with are amazing! Can't wait to be home with them and operate on tvs and be back to the fishbowl!

Re-occuring Dreams of Heart vs. Mind.

In the grass, I find myself thinking again
I'm praying once again
If you asked me, I'd tell you I was just admiring the purple flowers
Cuz I can't bring my self to say again to fall under this unforgiving power
When the sun sinks & my unconciouse dominates, the thoughts graze over my minds pasture
They slink under my carefully structured walls and are unleashed into their own scenes
Like a bad accident, I can't turn away
& I cant fight them back into their gates where they are usually contained.
I am subjected to them and am submissive to hearing their message
no matter how I struggle, I am at mercy to their wrenching ploys

Waking to the first morning light they realize I am no longer at bay to my subconcious
They flee as quickly as the sun hits my face, for they know the fury that would be unleashed to them if I could ever catch my tormentors
As the rabbit has his hiding place in his dark hole, they are out of reach in an instant and are only to be found upon the following nights scenic tour of my heart's deepest denied desires
Only then am I left unprotected and their gate left unguarded
when I am overtaken by sleep and they are once again free to roam and ravage where they wish.
Subconciouse, have mercy on my bound sleeping mind
Repressing is the only weapon I have to throw
let me sleep in peace, let my desires fade into a distant memory
and let my worst fears be played out in their time, in a way that I can find the ways to make it out alright
enough of these subconciouse cheap shots.
Thank You, and Goodnight.

Ps. Hawaii, ware me out at day so I can sleep soundly and wake early to catch the morning light to Holga. Sunday morning I will be island bound and hopefully sleeping from then on with sand inbetween my toes and pina colada smoothies in my belly. Love my life & all of you.

Life is Life, Then You Go to Maui.

I was drowning today. It was a perfect example of those days life slaps you in the face with a giant dill pickle. (!!!!!!) Some days when it rains it pours haha, great. bills, school, life, it can get me freaked out sometimes!

Also, Isn't it summer? care free? no stresss time? alright.. Life is still Life.

I will be okay, just have to have a little faith, & be a little more broke in..

MAUI!!

Yep! Friday. This Friday! I got freaked out a little today about life & then I remembered that I only have 5 days left till it's all sand and sun! I'm going home for my cousins wedding then fly out from Boise.

There are no words to explain my excitement. I would try but I'm just too excited to describe!!

Holga in Hawaii. Can we talk about it?? Check it off my life list.

Also this, I love my new apartment. And my new roommates. And this time I have to learn and grow from them, they are seriously so amazing & I am so exited to be living with them!

Bills, Bills, Bills, but life is still the same. Even though today I have gotten a lot of bad news that makes me want to pluck out my eyes, Life is what you make it, and I want to make it good everyday no matter what! Just a tiny more stressful! I hope everyone is loving this summer time and making every sunny day wonderful!

Fast Forward

Hi,

My best friend Margot is married! & I was a bridesmaid for the first time! She was so incredibly beautiful ( In true Margot fashion of course) but this time it was like her beauty.. caught on fire. Yea, you heard me, on fire! Her hubby just.. made her glow! Have you ever seen it? It happens, rarely. Anyways, pretty much the most gorgeous couple I have seen. It was bittersweet. I have a deep love for margret like a soul sister but I am so excited for her because even though I met her hubby on her actual wedding day, he was radiating kindness, and made everything about her radiate happiness like no one I've ever seen her with befor. I know they will be happy for forever. weird, but I do, everyone felt it.

After Margot's wedding, I had the privilege to have the company of Meggie's Fam to stay at their abode and pretty sure I have a deep love for her family now. (my favorite is Linky though, how he beings me so much joy. and Cami, hahah yes. & Meggie & Amber & Her Mom! ..but I just love little slinky.) He is 8 months? or 7? I forgot which photo shoot he has had last :) Also pretty sure I slept the best I have in ages, such a comfy bed I got! It really was a great time. Then we went to nanny at Megan's new job with the family. Can we talk about Madeline? Pretty much THE cutest little giggly girl I have ever met. So adorable. I can't handle it. I miss her!

Then it came to Ivan & Monica' s wedding. You can tell they were meant for each other by the way they cut the cake and fed each other. It was kinda like watching mild UFC. just kidding. But yeah pretty sure they could not have found a better partner in life. Good, Better & Best is proven with them, definitely picked the bEst option. I have a deep love for them both and Am so happy that they are happy and married now!!

So really with this weekend full of marriage and babies, what do you expect me to have on my mind? .. here it goes. I am about to make a confession that will cause my mother to call me the second she reads this and perhaps might move her to tears.

I, Chelsea Babbitt, feel like, maybe, I want to be married.

AHHHH What? Who is saying this? What has come over me? Who am I?

No really.

I want eternity with someone who makes me glow inside & out.

I want a life with my very best companion like monica & ivan.

& I don't want anything less.

I want someday in the farther future to have a little cuddle bug like Madeline.

Who giggles at everything and helps me sort laundry, even though I have to sort it all again after :)

It was a good weekend. Do you ever feel like you grow up in fast forward motion sometimes in a matter of days? Maybe not in entirely just those days, but its like you start way back having the thoughts, and then certain events in just their right times confirm those thoughts, and then turn them into desires? Outside sources influence your life more then they even know ha so, thanks everyone this weekend who reminded me that letting go of things & growing up isn't the end of your life, it's just the beginning of so many great blessings in store for you. I am so glad to have so many great examples around me this weekend. That's all. Hope everyone had a great weekend & are loving this crazy tea cup ride we call life.